creation #2 : dark blue eyes

"ARE YOU OKAY?"

Dark blue eyes,
Looking straight into mine.
What happened to me,
He had no clue.

The feelings came to me,
Insecurities arising;
Lost control over all emotions,
As the urge to weep finally hit.

Vision blurred, teary view,
Eyes welled up in despair;
Then she walked in, called your name,
You walked to her and left me there.

I stole a glance,
Caught my breath,
Held back my tears,
And turned away.

Those eyes,
Knocked down walls of insincerity,
Triggered the rush of tears.

Dark blue eyes,
I shall never trust again.

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memory #13 : forever and always

there are always those few people who will be there whenever you need them;

may it be one or two, or if you're lucky, even more.

those people, shall be the ones who will change you, your life and eventually, your dreams.  :)

friends, just a little something special;

people who will be there; 

forever and always.  :)

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memory #12 : they will exist

But in a box beneath my bed is a letter that you never read from three summers back,
It's hard not to find it all a little bitter sweet,
And lookin' back on all of that it's nice to believe;

It's been you all along.


And these are the things I will never ever tell you, you will never ever know, you will never ever hear coming out from me.
Yet, they will exist; forever and always.

Still, it's time to finally let go.  :)



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memory #11 : 逃避一个我不想要的答案

三年。

这三年以来，一直都在逃避的事实；

这三年以来，一直都不敢问的问题；

这三年以来，一直都在等待的答案。

今天，我终于得到了。

三年以来，
虽然很想听到答案，
却不想知道答案；
虽然恨不得亲口问出答案，
却从来都不过问。

现在，我得到答案了，
可是，这时我想要的吗？

三年来，
从来不过问，
是因为我一直都在逃避，
逃避一个我不想要的答案。

好想再回到那些年的时光，回到教室座位前后，故意讨你温柔的骂。- 那些年，胡夏

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memory #10 : lovin' the way things are

Life is kinda slowing down,
Things are kinda calming down.
Troubles are kinda drowning out,
Mistakes are kinda wearing out.

Yes, 

There still are things that I worry about,
Things I loose sleep for at night,
Things I wish I could get back to.

But isn't this the way life is?
Always giving you a hurdle to cross;
Each one harder than the other.
But remember,
What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.

So, yeah.
Life is starting to treat me kinder.

Lovin' the way things are.  ;D  ♥ 

.with love from .
thememoryholder

memory #9 : we both know what's going on, don't we?

That feeling,

When I look at you, and you're already looking at me.

I really miss what we had,
No idea what it's called, maybe a flirtationship.
But at least back then, we could talk to each other like the world would never end.

I just can't help thinking,
You obviously know something is going on,
It's just that none of us would take the initiative to talk things out.

Oh well, if that's the case, then sorry.
Cause you've taught me that initiative shouldn't be wasted on guys.

After all,
We both know what's going on, don't we?

天空怎么那么暗
爱情为何那么难；
谁能告诉我答案，
我的心好乱。 

 

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memory #8 : shattered piece trust

I hate people who misuse my trust,

Especially those I trusted the most.

Why do I always trust the wrong people?

It used to be her,
Then him,
Now you.

I thought you were different.
Oh well, you seemed different.
But then, you started to change,
And since then, things have never been the same.

I freaking hate changes.

Why can't things just stay the same?
Putting a knot to the ends of two strings in one week?
That's tough.

I feel like I'm just letting the people I love,
The people I care about,
Slowly slip through my fingers.

The people I would never ever wanna hurt,
They're hurt by my secrets;

The people I used to care for,

They're leaving me, one by one.

Believe me, I'm trying my best;
I'm trying everything in my power to save everything.
But sometimes, it's not by our choice.
If things are to break, it'll break.

Too many people have come and left,
Too many wounds imprinted by those I cared;

Too may words left misunderstood,

Too many secrets, waiting to be uncovered.

The trust I had in you,

Misused,
Shattered.

Now you've shattered it,
Leave, once and for all.

And please, never ever come back to me again.
Cause all it takes is just a smile from you,
To break down all the boundaries I built.

Leave,
And never look back.

I've found time, can heal almost anything.  - Taylor Swift, Fifteen.

Oh well, looks like she was wrong.

. with love from .

thememoryholder

memory #7 : the ultimate secret

A random fact:

All those typography pictures,
They always use the words 'you, he, she'
No names mentioned,
No particular descriptions given.

Why?

Cause it's a secret.

A deep, dark secret.

I was reading through our conversations,
Scrolling back to how we started talking.
It was just a simple wish of blessing,
That started everything.

He was different,
I could tell.
There was nothing we wouldn't talk about,
The talks were something I couldn't do without.

I have no idea how to describe what happened next,

Without making it seem too obvious.

But yeah, something BIG happened,
And things changed.

Our conversations got rarer and rarer,
The silly things we used to talk about;
No idea where they went.
Things got ugly, when I found out
That is was her, that ended it all.

Now there's a dark secret,
Deep down in my heart.
Nobody I could share it with,
It's killing me inside out.

He tried to start a conversation,
Which I ignored with a heart of burning passion.

Cause if I wanted things to change back,

Then sorry, but I'll have to back off.

The burning passion,
Those emotional thoughts;

I had to hide,

I had to deny.

But the more I try,
The more the feeling grows.

I'm not so sure if what I did was right.
All I know is that if I didn't back off then,
Then I'll fall under a deep and dark spell.

And things,
Will never go back to the way they were again.

Now that,
Is the ultimate secret.

The more you hide your feeling, the more they show; The more you deny your feelings, the more they grow.  - hplyrikz.com  tumblr

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memory #6 : here it ends

Looking at your name,
Saying it again;

The awkward feeling arises,

And takes over my conscience.

The talks we used to have,

All gone, like a head shaved;

Those wonderful moments,

All gone in an instant.

I remember all your secrets;
And just how you laughed.

But what about my secrets?
Do you remember, at all?

I guess it's forgotten,
All blown away;
By the storm that settled,
On the day we went our ways.

I've accepted the truth,

That you've gone far away;

Nothing I could do would make you stay,

You still wanted to leave anyway.

So here I sit,
With my heart in the pit,

Knowing this is it,

Here it ends.

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thememoryholder

memory #5 : is this all?

Waking up in the morning, and feeling tired again.



Tired,
Tired of being sad, tired of being stressed, tired of being depressed;

Tired,
Tired of caring too much, tired of getting ignored, tired of being the odd one out;

Tired,
Tired of responsibilities, tired of troubles, tired of changes;

Tired,
Tired of hiding everything, tired of wiping away the tears, tired of pretending everything's fine;



Storing everything in,
Leaving only the smiles, the jokes, the laughs on the outside;
Stocking away all the tears, the anger, the jealousy on the inside.



Everything's changed,
And so have I.
I'll never be the person I used to be again;
Never dream like I used to,
Never think like I once did;
Never, ever again.

And that's the thing about changes that scares me most.
Changes come unexpectedly, you never know when it'll happen,
And once it does, it's gonna be so obvious, you'll know instantly.

But once you've changed,
You'll never change back,
Again.

Sometimes I wonder,
Is this all there is to life?

Tired,
Tired of life,
And finally, tired of being tired.

Life keeps getting in the way - Gotta go my own way, Vanessa Hudgens

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thememoryholder

memory #4 : true love... ?

Some people try their whole lives to be the right person for the one they love;
But they end up with nothing,
Just a sad, broken heart,
And the inability to ever love the same way again.

She will never love the same way she did,
Never ever again, she said.
Never will she have the same feelings for another guy,
Or the time to spend.

Guys, wake up.
Girls don't stand around;
And spend years around you;
Being there for you every single time;
And not going for anyone else;
Just for fun.

If one does,
Then that means she's hiding something else.
And you should know what she's hiding.

True love is unconditional,
Unlimited,
Unchangeable,
And unbreakable.

真爱就像是鬼魂；每个人都知道它，都在说它。但有几个真的遇见了？
遇见了，你会晓得吗？
True love is just like ghouls. Everyone knows about it, everyone talks about it. But how many have really met  one?

Unless you've been through all that, you'll never know.

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thememoryholder

creation #1 : better as best friends

Hanging out,
Talking loud,
We've been spending time together;
Screaming out,
Singing loud,
We've been laughing through all that together.

But do you ever,
Ever wonder,
What's this we're having now?

Are we simple friends?
Or singe friends,
Falling for each other?

Do you think so?
I don't know,
But I can tell you this;
That it's so clear,
You're the one, my dear;
The one I'm falling for.

But no way,
I can't tell you that;
Cause my friend,
We're not ready yet.

Not ready to change,
Or face it anyway;
So let's just stay this way,
Okay?

No way,
Can't let you know that yet;
It's killing me,
To hide it from you, yeah.

Not ready for this,
Can't deal with it, my friend;
So let's just stay this way,
Okay?

Don't wanna rush this,
Don't wanna kill it,
Things are just perfect, just awesome now;
Don't wanna change this,
Don't wanna ruin it all...

'Cause we're better as best friends.


PS  First try at lyrics. So, yeah...  Comments please.  :)

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thememoryholder

memory #3 : it's easier this way

There's this fact I found out about people:

When people ask:

"Are you okay? Is anything wrong?"

Most of the time,
They don't mean it.

They won't spend the time,

To get to know what's going on.
They won't take the time,

To listen to you,

To understand,

And to make you feel better.

They ask, just to sound polite.

What happened to the humanly society?

I know,

That it's easier for you to put on a smile, 

Tell everyone who cares to ask that nothing's wrong;

Everything's fine.

Cause it's not really that easy,

To tear off the smile on your face,

Tell people it's not okay;

Tell them everything is wrong;

Out of control,

And make them understand,

Make them care.

Those who care are not available,
Those who don't care don't matter.

this is life.
never fair,
never simple,
never easy.

So just put on that stupid smile of yours and face the world,
Cause it's easier this way.

And we know it's never simple, never easy.  - Breathe, Taylor Swift

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memory #2 : what if...

I can't tell you.
'Cause if I told you, you would go berserk;
You would flee from me;
You would leave me.
We can never be the same again;
Never be the way we used to be.

If I told you,
You would change;
She would also change;
WE would all change.

I just wonder,
I just need to know.
Is there anything else between us?
Anything I should know?

But no, I can't.
I can't share it with you, or with her.
'Cause if either of you knew, all would be ruined.
EVERYTHING,
Every single thing, will be ruined.

But, what if...
What if I couldn't stand all this secrecy?
What if I can't stand you being in the dark, not knowing anything?
What if one day,
I told you?

Would you stare at me with big big eyes?
Or would you laugh and shrug it off,
And say goodbye to our friendship?


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memory #1 : the confusion

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
I love you,
Wishing you do too.

One mental note to everyone.
Never, never ever tease a boy.

Cause he might just end up falling for you;

Or the other way round.
You may just end up falling for him.

And never.

Never, never ever fall for a friend.
Bad friends, good friends, best friends or even MEGA best friends.

Cause you know it's already over before it even began.

Also, never.

Never, never ever let things get complicated.

And when it comes to choose between a relationship and a friendship,

You know what to choose,

Make a wise choice.

Finally, never.

Never , never ever let him know.
Cause being your friend, he should know enough.
Even if he doesn't, he doesn't need more information.

Cause it's gonna kill your perfectly awesome friendship,

That pure, sweet friendship,

Into something terrible.  

. with love from .

thememoryholder

the starting point

hello to all.  :)

this is my new blog. i used to run It's My Life ❤ . but due to certain reasons, i decided to close it down. read the last post to find out what happened.

well, not having a media to write and share things with is kinda hard. i couldn't stand not having anything special to do, so i decided to start up another blog. so here you have this, the memory lane, all there is to remember.


be ready to be entertained by me. sincere and heart-breaking posts, known as memories on this blog, will fill this memory lane, fill this life, and also fill you memories.

get ready, for the ultimate entertainment.  :)


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