memory #12 : they will exist

But in a box beneath my bed is a letter that you never read from three summers back,
It's hard not to find it all a little bitter sweet,
And lookin' back on all of that it's nice to believe;

It's been you all along.


And these are the things I will never ever tell you, you will never ever know, you will never ever hear coming out from me.
Yet, they will exist; forever and always.

Still, it's time to finally let go.  :)



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thememoryholder

memory #11 : 逃避一个我不想要的答案

三年。

这三年以来，一直都在逃避的事实；

这三年以来，一直都不敢问的问题；

这三年以来，一直都在等待的答案。

今天，我终于得到了。

三年以来，
虽然很想听到答案，
却不想知道答案；
虽然恨不得亲口问出答案，
却从来都不过问。

现在，我得到答案了，
可是，这时我想要的吗？

三年来，
从来不过问，
是因为我一直都在逃避，
逃避一个我不想要的答案。

好想再回到那些年的时光，回到教室座位前后，故意讨你温柔的骂。- 那些年，胡夏

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thememoryholder

memory #9 : we both know what's going on, don't we?

That feeling,

When I look at you, and you're already looking at me.

I really miss what we had,
No idea what it's called, maybe a flirtationship.
But at least back then, we could talk to each other like the world would never end.

I just can't help thinking,
You obviously know something is going on,
It's just that none of us would take the initiative to talk things out.

Oh well, if that's the case, then sorry.
Cause you've taught me that initiative shouldn't be wasted on guys.

After all,
We both know what's going on, don't we?

天空怎么那么暗
爱情为何那么难；
谁能告诉我答案，
我的心好乱。 

 

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thememoryholder

memory #8 : shattered piece trust

I hate people who misuse my trust,

Especially those I trusted the most.

Why do I always trust the wrong people?

It used to be her,
Then him,
Now you.

I thought you were different.
Oh well, you seemed different.
But then, you started to change,
And since then, things have never been the same.

I freaking hate changes.

Why can't things just stay the same?
Putting a knot to the ends of two strings in one week?
That's tough.

I feel like I'm just letting the people I love,
The people I care about,
Slowly slip through my fingers.

The people I would never ever wanna hurt,
They're hurt by my secrets;

The people I used to care for,

They're leaving me, one by one.

Believe me, I'm trying my best;
I'm trying everything in my power to save everything.
But sometimes, it's not by our choice.
If things are to break, it'll break.

Too many people have come and left,
Too many wounds imprinted by those I cared;

Too may words left misunderstood,

Too many secrets, waiting to be uncovered.

The trust I had in you,

Misused,
Shattered.

Now you've shattered it,
Leave, once and for all.

And please, never ever come back to me again.
Cause all it takes is just a smile from you,
To break down all the boundaries I built.

Leave,
And never look back.

I've found time, can heal almost anything.  - Taylor Swift, Fifteen.

Oh well, looks like she was wrong.

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thememoryholder

memory #5 : is this all?

Waking up in the morning, and feeling tired again.



Tired,
Tired of being sad, tired of being stressed, tired of being depressed;

Tired,
Tired of caring too much, tired of getting ignored, tired of being the odd one out;

Tired,
Tired of responsibilities, tired of troubles, tired of changes;

Tired,
Tired of hiding everything, tired of wiping away the tears, tired of pretending everything's fine;



Storing everything in,
Leaving only the smiles, the jokes, the laughs on the outside;
Stocking away all the tears, the anger, the jealousy on the inside.



Everything's changed,
And so have I.
I'll never be the person I used to be again;
Never dream like I used to,
Never think like I once did;
Never, ever again.

And that's the thing about changes that scares me most.
Changes come unexpectedly, you never know when it'll happen,
And once it does, it's gonna be so obvious, you'll know instantly.

But once you've changed,
You'll never change back,
Again.

Sometimes I wonder,
Is this all there is to life?

Tired,
Tired of life,
And finally, tired of being tired.

Life keeps getting in the way - Gotta go my own way, Vanessa Hudgens

. with love from .
thememoryholder

creation #1 : better as best friends

Hanging out,
Talking loud,
We've been spending time together;
Screaming out,
Singing loud,
We've been laughing through all that together.

But do you ever,
Ever wonder,
What's this we're having now?

Are we simple friends?
Or singe friends,
Falling for each other?

Do you think so?
I don't know,
But I can tell you this;
That it's so clear,
You're the one, my dear;
The one I'm falling for.

But no way,
I can't tell you that;
Cause my friend,
We're not ready yet.

Not ready to change,
Or face it anyway;
So let's just stay this way,
Okay?

No way,
Can't let you know that yet;
It's killing me,
To hide it from you, yeah.

Not ready for this,
Can't deal with it, my friend;
So let's just stay this way,
Okay?

Don't wanna rush this,
Don't wanna kill it,
Things are just perfect, just awesome now;
Don't wanna change this,
Don't wanna ruin it all...

'Cause we're better as best friends.


PS  First try at lyrics. So, yeah...  Comments please.  :)

. with love from .
thememoryholder