memory #12 : they will exist

But in a box beneath my bed is a letter that you never read from three summers back,
It's hard not to find it all a little bitter sweet,
And lookin' back on all of that it's nice to believe;

It's been you all along.


And these are the things I will never ever tell you, you will never ever know, you will never ever hear coming out from me.
Yet, they will exist; forever and always.

Still, it's time to finally let go.  :)



. with love from .
thememoryholder

memory #8 : shattered piece trust

I hate people who misuse my trust,

Especially those I trusted the most.

Why do I always trust the wrong people?

It used to be her,
Then him,
Now you.

I thought you were different.
Oh well, you seemed different.
But then, you started to change,
And since then, things have never been the same.

I freaking hate changes.

Why can't things just stay the same?
Putting a knot to the ends of two strings in one week?
That's tough.

I feel like I'm just letting the people I love,
The people I care about,
Slowly slip through my fingers.

The people I would never ever wanna hurt,
They're hurt by my secrets;

The people I used to care for,

They're leaving me, one by one.

Believe me, I'm trying my best;
I'm trying everything in my power to save everything.
But sometimes, it's not by our choice.
If things are to break, it'll break.

Too many people have come and left,
Too many wounds imprinted by those I cared;

Too may words left misunderstood,

Too many secrets, waiting to be uncovered.

The trust I had in you,

Misused,
Shattered.

Now you've shattered it,
Leave, once and for all.

And please, never ever come back to me again.
Cause all it takes is just a smile from you,
To break down all the boundaries I built.

Leave,
And never look back.

I've found time, can heal almost anything.  - Taylor Swift, Fifteen.

Oh well, looks like she was wrong.

. with love from .

thememoryholder

memory #3 : it's easier this way

There's this fact I found out about people:

When people ask:

"Are you okay? Is anything wrong?"

Most of the time,
They don't mean it.

They won't spend the time,

To get to know what's going on.
They won't take the time,

To listen to you,

To understand,

And to make you feel better.

They ask, just to sound polite.

What happened to the humanly society?

I know,

That it's easier for you to put on a smile, 

Tell everyone who cares to ask that nothing's wrong;

Everything's fine.

Cause it's not really that easy,

To tear off the smile on your face,

Tell people it's not okay;

Tell them everything is wrong;

Out of control,

And make them understand,

Make them care.

Those who care are not available,
Those who don't care don't matter.

this is life.
never fair,
never simple,
never easy.

So just put on that stupid smile of yours and face the world,
Cause it's easier this way.

And we know it's never simple, never easy.  - Breathe, Taylor Swift

. with love from .
thememoryholder