memory #11 : 逃避一个我不想要的答案

三年。

这三年以来，一直都在逃避的事实；

这三年以来，一直都不敢问的问题；

这三年以来，一直都在等待的答案。

今天，我终于得到了。

三年以来，
虽然很想听到答案，
却不想知道答案；
虽然恨不得亲口问出答案，
却从来都不过问。

现在，我得到答案了，
可是，这时我想要的吗？

三年来，
从来不过问，
是因为我一直都在逃避，
逃避一个我不想要的答案。

好想再回到那些年的时光，回到教室座位前后，故意讨你温柔的骂。- 那些年，胡夏

. with love from .
thememoryholder

memory #10 : lovin' the way things are

Life is kinda slowing down,
Things are kinda calming down.
Troubles are kinda drowning out,
Mistakes are kinda wearing out.

Yes, 

There still are things that I worry about,
Things I loose sleep for at night,
Things I wish I could get back to.

But isn't this the way life is?
Always giving you a hurdle to cross;
Each one harder than the other.
But remember,
What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.

So, yeah.
Life is starting to treat me kinder.

Lovin' the way things are.  ;D  ♥ 

.with love from .
thememoryholder

memory #9 : we both know what's going on, don't we?

That feeling,

When I look at you, and you're already looking at me.

I really miss what we had,
No idea what it's called, maybe a flirtationship.
But at least back then, we could talk to each other like the world would never end.

I just can't help thinking,
You obviously know something is going on,
It's just that none of us would take the initiative to talk things out.

Oh well, if that's the case, then sorry.
Cause you've taught me that initiative shouldn't be wasted on guys.

After all,
We both know what's going on, don't we?

天空怎么那么暗
爱情为何那么难；
谁能告诉我答案，
我的心好乱。 

 

. with love from .

thememoryholder

memory #8 : shattered piece trust

I hate people who misuse my trust,

Especially those I trusted the most.

Why do I always trust the wrong people?

It used to be her,
Then him,
Now you.

I thought you were different.
Oh well, you seemed different.
But then, you started to change,
And since then, things have never been the same.

I freaking hate changes.

Why can't things just stay the same?
Putting a knot to the ends of two strings in one week?
That's tough.

I feel like I'm just letting the people I love,
The people I care about,
Slowly slip through my fingers.

The people I would never ever wanna hurt,
They're hurt by my secrets;

The people I used to care for,

They're leaving me, one by one.

Believe me, I'm trying my best;
I'm trying everything in my power to save everything.
But sometimes, it's not by our choice.
If things are to break, it'll break.

Too many people have come and left,
Too many wounds imprinted by those I cared;

Too may words left misunderstood,

Too many secrets, waiting to be uncovered.

The trust I had in you,

Misused,
Shattered.

Now you've shattered it,
Leave, once and for all.

And please, never ever come back to me again.
Cause all it takes is just a smile from you,
To break down all the boundaries I built.

Leave,
And never look back.

I've found time, can heal almost anything.  - Taylor Swift, Fifteen.

Oh well, looks like she was wrong.

. with love from .

thememoryholder

memory #7 : the ultimate secret

A random fact:

All those typography pictures,
They always use the words 'you, he, she'
No names mentioned,
No particular descriptions given.

Why?

Cause it's a secret.

A deep, dark secret.

I was reading through our conversations,
Scrolling back to how we started talking.
It was just a simple wish of blessing,
That started everything.

He was different,
I could tell.
There was nothing we wouldn't talk about,
The talks were something I couldn't do without.

I have no idea how to describe what happened next,

Without making it seem too obvious.

But yeah, something BIG happened,
And things changed.

Our conversations got rarer and rarer,
The silly things we used to talk about;
No idea where they went.
Things got ugly, when I found out
That is was her, that ended it all.

Now there's a dark secret,
Deep down in my heart.
Nobody I could share it with,
It's killing me inside out.

He tried to start a conversation,
Which I ignored with a heart of burning passion.

Cause if I wanted things to change back,

Then sorry, but I'll have to back off.

The burning passion,
Those emotional thoughts;

I had to hide,

I had to deny.

But the more I try,
The more the feeling grows.

I'm not so sure if what I did was right.
All I know is that if I didn't back off then,
Then I'll fall under a deep and dark spell.

And things,
Will never go back to the way they were again.

Now that,
Is the ultimate secret.

The more you hide your feeling, the more they show; The more you deny your feelings, the more they grow.  - hplyrikz.com  tumblr

. with love from .

thememoryholder

memory #6 : here it ends

Looking at your name,
Saying it again;

The awkward feeling arises,

And takes over my conscience.

The talks we used to have,

All gone, like a head shaved;

Those wonderful moments,

All gone in an instant.

I remember all your secrets;
And just how you laughed.

But what about my secrets?
Do you remember, at all?

I guess it's forgotten,
All blown away;
By the storm that settled,
On the day we went our ways.

I've accepted the truth,

That you've gone far away;

Nothing I could do would make you stay,

You still wanted to leave anyway.

So here I sit,
With my heart in the pit,

Knowing this is it,

Here it ends.

. with love from .

thememoryholder